The real me?
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hildy89So I didn't make the CVS goal of rewriting the "Going Under" chapter. I made some cursory edits of the easy bits, but there are major chunks that need rethinking, especially at the beginning. However, I've signed up for a firm submission deadline of April 7th, so er, I guess I'll have to get going.
At the meeting, we discussed the possible format changes for the group at length. I'm hoping to contribute to the website by finding all the old author events reports I've posted on LJ. I was surprised to discover I never really posted an account of the SF/Fantasy panel we held last November. Not terribly surprising, since my word count worries were elsewhere.
One thing did come out of the blue, though, and prompted some thinking and dreaded ruminating. It's kinda related to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
erinpoetchica recent concerns on posting her fanfic.
As most of you know, I belong to a lovely Thursday writers group. I work on a lot of my own original fiction in various genres. Name one, I've probably toyed with it, even in aborted attempts. Yes, even some of those stories. I also write fanfiction, which I post on a seperate ljwabbitseason. You're welcome to friend that if you want. Lately the focus has been more comic book fandoms, but I'm like the winds in "Chocolat", taking me off to the next world or universe at a moment's notice.
Anyway, several of my writerly buddies were chatting about me and the subject of how prolific a writer I was came up. They never realized it because I don't really bring it up at meetings. My fanfic challenges generally aren't part of my weekly goals, unless I'm desperate to get something done. Most of our group doesn't write fanfic, so it's not always a topic that comes up. They were generally very encouraging about it, if I wanted help revising stories and such. It was rather a startling moment. I haven't had a general "Yay me!" moment in some time.
I hadn't really realized how much I wrote even last year, until I did my "Year in Review". After the second page of links, I did a quiet little "meep" in the corner. Did I really write all that? The trend is getting away from the 100 word drabbles, too, towards longer ficlets. March has been particularly busy with back-to-back fanfic challenges at each end of the month. Actually it's been rather insane, tell the truth.
I never really thought about the split in my head. I guess because I don't mention the fanfiction projects, people don't think to ask. Or realize that I really have five or six goals for a week, instead of just one. I developed the other journal to hold my fannish thoughts and occasionally there is some crossover, but not really.
To me, I'm two different writers, both dedicated to different aims and goals. They coexist and sometimes feed off each other. So far there hasn't been any bloodshed.
The one me wants to get published. She has since about high school, when she was entering writing contests. She struggles and strains away at her own stuff. She occasionally makes herself goals to shoot for.
The fannish me has been writing right alongside since college as an escape and hasn't looked back. She don't write for anyone else, except herself. If it's too obscure for anyone to get the references, oh well. The challenges have taught her to be a little less selfish, since she's writing for someone else's pleasure, not just her own.
At the meeting, we discussed the possible format changes for the group at length. I'm hoping to contribute to the website by finding all the old author events reports I've posted on LJ. I was surprised to discover I never really posted an account of the SF/Fantasy panel we held last November. Not terribly surprising, since my word count worries were elsewhere.
One thing did come out of the blue, though, and prompted some thinking and dreaded ruminating. It's kinda related to
erinpoetchica recent concerns on posting her fanfic.As most of you know, I belong to a lovely Thursday writers group. I work on a lot of my own original fiction in various genres. Name one, I've probably toyed with it, even in aborted attempts. Yes, even some of those stories. I also write fanfiction, which I post on a seperate lj
wabbitseason. You're welcome to friend that if you want. Lately the focus has been more comic book fandoms, but I'm like the winds in "Chocolat", taking me off to the next world or universe at a moment's notice. Anyway, several of my writerly buddies were chatting about me and the subject of how prolific a writer I was came up. They never realized it because I don't really bring it up at meetings. My fanfic challenges generally aren't part of my weekly goals, unless I'm desperate to get something done. Most of our group doesn't write fanfic, so it's not always a topic that comes up. They were generally very encouraging about it, if I wanted help revising stories and such. It was rather a startling moment. I haven't had a general "Yay me!" moment in some time.
I hadn't really realized how much I wrote even last year, until I did my "Year in Review". After the second page of links, I did a quiet little "meep" in the corner. Did I really write all that? The trend is getting away from the 100 word drabbles, too, towards longer ficlets. March has been particularly busy with back-to-back fanfic challenges at each end of the month. Actually it's been rather insane, tell the truth.
I never really thought about the split in my head. I guess because I don't mention the fanfiction projects, people don't think to ask. Or realize that I really have five or six goals for a week, instead of just one. I developed the other journal to hold my fannish thoughts and occasionally there is some crossover, but not really.
To me, I'm two different writers, both dedicated to different aims and goals. They coexist and sometimes feed off each other. So far there hasn't been any bloodshed.
The one me wants to get published. She has since about high school, when she was entering writing contests. She struggles and strains away at her own stuff. She occasionally makes herself goals to shoot for.
The fannish me has been writing right alongside since college as an escape and hasn't looked back. She don't write for anyone else, except herself. If it's too obscure for anyone to get the references, oh well. The challenges have taught her to be a little less selfish, since she's writing for someone else's pleasure, not just her own.
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Date: 2005-03-18 12:27 pm (UTC)I may have mentioned something about how much you write, a bit ago... *grin* I realized it when I was looking at your website-- there is a huge, honking LOT of fic there!
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